I lost my son. Ryan passed away 4 months ago. Without any warning, no sign, no illness, no nothing. In a beutiful day of august, when Rosie took him and his brother for a bath, he just fainted and that was it.
It just happened when we thought everything was going to be alright, it was 3 months that I was at my new job and they were just back from a pleasant 3 months visit to Iran.
Once, when they were in Iran, I told a colleague that I could not remember Ryan's face and I was scared, I took a few of his picture and put it just in front of me at work. We miss him so much, I am patient, one day we will join him, that is the silver lining.