I am really oscillating between belief and disbelief. The image of god the way which is explained in Abrahamic religions has some contradictions in it. He is all powerful and able to do anything and he is fair. At the same time under his command the most unfair things are happening. There are two possibilities for me, the first one is that God is not fair, or fairness should be redefined.
If I am capable of preventing innocent people from suffering , but I don't then I am not fair, at least in human standards.